I’m feeling generally mediocre right now. I feel that way about my grades, about my photographs, about any activism I might want to do. I’ve begun drawing. I actually started late last year. I’m going off of photo references. Some have turned out well (considering). Recognizable at least, though still with obvious mistakes. I’ve drawn two wolves, a fox, and a dog. I started to human, using a picture of Jack Nicholson as a reference (private joke) but it started looking like a picture I drew of my dad when I was six. So I quit on it. I have to wonder sometimes if it’s too late for me to improve. I have to remember that this is a brand new skill I’m trying to develop.
And I’m still traumatized from 2011. I continue to go around people who have never done me any harm and be terrified. Brayn wat r u doin. brayn stahp.