Ahh! A fresh install. Much better to use. And a new harddrive. Old one tanked, and I lost a letter I was working on. Annoying. But I was able to write it back out long hand. Ordered a new disk off of newegg, and waited a week for a broken one to arrive in the mail. I’d been hoping to save money, but it turns out I’m only going to be spending whatever I save on return postage. So that was frustrating.
But man, it’s been a while since my last entry. Let’s see. I went to a party where I didn’t technically know anybody–okay, there was a person there I had met at my training, and the friend of hers she brought along to help us clean up a creek here in town, but that’s it–and it was awkward. Then tonight I went to the Green Party open house–another party, but I know more people there, and I know them better, so not nearly as awkward. I still had a few times where I was growing anxious. I just found a place to sit down, then.
Other things I have done: I made brownies. I got diagnosed with a torn meniscus in my knee, scheduled a surgery, rescheduled it, bought insurance, rescheduled the surgery again, aced a couple of finals, did okay on one, and missed the fourth–Dafuq??? I never check my pellissippi webmail, because I have to use microsoft outlook, which I hate with a firey burning passion, and so I did not find out until Wednesday that the final was on Monday instead of our usual class time. Whatever. Crazily, I may still have passed that class. It’ll impact my GPA, maybe, but I didn’t stop me from graduating this week. Today’s the official day. There was a ceremony and everything. I didn’t bother to attend, though. I’m the only blood in town, and I’ve only just barely got friends nowadays. It probably means less since I spent seven years on a two-year degree. So my first major accomplishment will go unheralded.
I should really make sure and pretend not to care. I guess it’s just part of a wider pattern. I’m not connected to people. It all still makes me feel really lonely. That makes me feel vulnerable. Christ, 2011 was a bad year. But it was the end of the beginning. So. Here we go. It takes me a long time to warm up to people.